I know how I am supposed to feel. I know what I am supposed to let go and what I am supposed to hang on to. Isn’t it lovely to be in that moment when you feel totally content and relaxed. Your mind says, why did I ever worry about that – look at all this that I have to be thankful for! I have learned the same lessons over and over again. I have made the same mistakes over and over again. I have poisoned myself with the same negative thoughts over and over again. And to what end? Getting all worked up about something that is so not worth it. And what’s worse – making others get all worked about something. I think I must say to myself, if they are upset, it validates me being upset. So silly. But ah, this moment of realization is so fleeting. Something else distracts us, and we’re back worrying about what everyone else is doing. How can I remember this moment? How can I remember how wonderful this home makes me feel, how nourished this warm meal makes me feel? And just like that, it’s gone.