Feeding Update – Bottle

On her 4 week birthday, we decided we just couldn’t take the finger feeding anymore.  We introduced the bottle.  She’s been great with it and it certainly makes feeding easier and more relaxing for us.  I think there are just as many dishes but at least they don’t need to be done as often and I can make more bottles ahead of time.  I feel very guilty, but I want to throw in the towel on the breastfeeding (there, I – kinda – said it out loud).  Unfortunately, after taking the bottle, she seems less interested in opening her mouth wide enough to latch on, and I have not gotten a successful latch on since starting with bottles (but haven’t tried enough either).  I am going to continue to try, but it just feels like too much.  I am ready to say – this is the plan – this is what’s working and this is what we’re going to do.  I am ready to move forward, to accept.  I think parenthood is all about guilt in one way, shape or form (I’m reading Imperfect Birds by Anne Lamott).  Right now, I feel guilty about just about everything – I feel guilty that I can’t seem to get the breastfeeding (or it just isn’t get-able), I feel guilty that I don’t want to get up in the middle of the night, I feel guilty that Ryan is better at soothing my child than I am because he’s spent the last 4 weeks being the primary feeder, I feel guilty that when I am driving her around at 4am, I would rather be sleeping next to my husband.  And then I see her beautiful little face, and I melt.

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3 Responses to Feeding Update – Bottle

  1. colleen says:

    I’m so happy for you to have a great going-forward plan. Good for you! I LOVED watching you give her a bottle. You are much happier. Do what is right for you and your family. Margeaux is wonderful little blessing. Enjoy this time.

  2. Jen says:

    There is nothing wrong with a bottle!!! More people skip the try at breastfeeding from the getgo and hit the bottle. Contemplate instead of feeling guilty. There is nothing wrong with missing things you used to have but realizing you love the new stuff too. :) Some stay, some go.

  3. Amy says:

    You’re still giving her the “liquid gold,” so who cares how she’s getting it! A happier, less stressed mama is always a good thing. :) xo

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