It was supposed to be a day spent teaching yoga to some good friends who so kindly volunteered to be my guinea pigs, but it turned in to a relaxing mental health day. Life is busy these days with R working so many different jobs, me in yoga training and M down to one nap a day. Last week i had yoga all weekend. This past week he had a symphony gig, which means Monday home together, Tuesday teaching private lessons and Wednesday, Thursday and Friday late night rehearsals over an hour away. He decided to stay overnight Friday night because of snow Saturday so I was in charge around here. There was a last minute babysitter switch for Saturday during yoga training. I had planned to finish preparing to teach, but had M instead. It was a great day but no planning happened. I was unprepared, I was not feeling like driving and just wanted to be home, all day, no plans. It was selfish to cancel and I feel guilty, but I also feel rested and grounded. I caught up with my family, I finished a book, I took a snooze. I didn’t even get out of my pjs! It’s been quite a while since I’ve had a day like that. I hated to cancel but I needed my Sunday so bad.
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Hopes for 2012
After reviewing my Hopes for 2011 and recapping about them, I’m ready to put my hopes for 2012 out there into the universe.
COMPOSTING:
Get back in to it and get serious about doing it all the time, not just when it’s convenient. My Secret Santa gifted me a lovely canister for next to the sink that has a nice filter. My old stinky Tupperware just wasn’t cutting it anymore. If you’re looking for one, this is a nice example, as is this larger version (which is the one I have, I think). There is also one from this Etsy Shop that is super cute, but pricey, albeit hand painted. The stuff really piles up fast and it makes you see how much you are throwing in a landfill, needlessly. I need to do some research on additional things I can compost, such as coffee grounds, tea bags, coffee filters, tissues, dryer lint and so on.
RECYCLING:
Become a more active, and less lazy, recycler. Start bringing home my yogurt containers and microwave meal trays, etc, from work. Walk the empty toilet paper roll from the bathroom to the recycling bin, instead of tossing it in the trash. Make sure NO PAPER goes in to the trash can, including mail, daily status reports from daycare, once a day calendar pages, etc. I’ve finally bothered to look on my town’s website to see what I can recycle to make sure I’m doing all I can. I’d also like to do a better job of shopping with conservation in mind, always bringing my reusable bags and continuing to not buy things with excessive packaging. I hope to use less zip lock bags, now that I have these. I’m also hoping to use less paper towels by keeping a stack of wash clothes in the kitchen for cleaning off M’s face and hands after eating.
GARDENING:
Plant one again this year. We added two new raised beds at the end of the season, so we should be good to go when it’s time to plant again!
YOGA:
Keep on the path I’m on. Keep cultivating my home practice. Keep studying the philosophy and incorporate it in to my daily, off the mat, life. Have more compassion for myself and for others, my family included. Don’t react as much without mindfulness. Graduate as a certified yoga teacher, even if I don’t ever teach a class. Don’t get down on myself if I don’t ever teach a class.
EATING/COOKING:
I’ll be attending this 3-month online workshop (with my mom!) on whole food eating/cooking. It’s run by someone who completed the Yoga Teacher Training at my studio and my studio will be holding four support meetings. I’m nervous because I anticipate it will be very challenging, but I’m really excited too! And how awesome that my mom is doing it too?! I’ve been scaling back big time on my sugar intake, and now that R works everyday he snacks a lot less. I’ve cut down on our meat intake at dinnertime, I’ve stopped having milk in my cereal by switching to almond milk, and I’ve swapped out yogurt for soy faux-gurt. We’ve both lost some weight during the last few months! I think this seminar will only help to further improve our eating! Don’t get me wrong, we still eat the heck out of some tacos and pizza (both homemade).
FAMILY & LIFE:
Be more present with M. No more playing Words with Friends when she’s awake! Continue to be amazed by all the cool things she learns everyday. Dance, Dance, Dance, and Sing, Sing, Sing. Realize that even though my husband is one of the only people who will let me take it out on him, doesn’t mean I should take it out on him. Focus my life on learning, loving, laughing and living.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hopes for 2011 Recap
Here we go again. Another year has almost passed us by already!
Last year, I refrained from making resolutions, but instead documented some personal hopes for the year.
Let’s recap 2011:
- My $100, year-long gym membership went unused, as I felt guilty for picking M up from daycare any later than I absolutely had to, and I got stuck at work well past 3pm some days. I went a few times in January/February but it just tapered off after that. I’m ok with that though.
- Yoga: Well, I didn’t go once a week like I had hoped to. However, I did take a big leap this summer by committing to a 10-month, 200 hour Yoga Teacher Training course which began in September 2011 and will end in June 2012. We meet one weekend a month and practice and learn ALL weekend! As of the December weekend I can do wheel! With this, I’ve also begun to cultivate a home practice. I’ve been reading some amazing books that go along with this course (they won’t show on the 2011 book list because I won’t be finished reading them until 2012):
* Meditations from the Mat by Rolf Gates
* Yoga and the Quest for the True Self by Stephen Cope
* The Bhagavad Gita translated by Eknath Easwaran
- Dog Walking: In preparation for the yoga teacher training, I started walking the dog like CRAZY (and doing lots of pushups at home and with my office-mate). M and I took Izzie out every morning before work and every afternoon after work. With that, and watching what I eat (no more sugar at work, stopped buying ice cream for the most part, no more sandwiches for lunch ) – I lost 10 lbs! But, as the time changed, Miss M started sleeping later, which is fine with me, and we started missing out on our morning walks. I have to be at work at 8am, so it’s hard to get it all done in the morning. And I hate to wake her up early. It’s been too dark in the evenings, and then the weather started turning colder . . . blah blah blah. It was so great while it lasted, except for the whole picking up the dog’s poop in a bag thing. That’s just gross.
- Garden: We planted one this year again! We had lots of tomatoes, big and small. We had our normal herbs, basil, etc. This year we added my favorite – brussel sprouts. The plants grew beautiful, but the brussels never really sprouted. What a bummer. We’ll try again in 2012.
- Sing and Dance with my Kiddo: Wahoo – this one was so successful. She loves to listen to music and we love to dance and be silly with her.
Bring on 2012!
Why Do Good?
My office has a reputation for putting out pretty cool holiday cards. Some of them take some pretty significant time to develop – think a couple hundred hours for the interactive game. This year, we decided to take that time and put it toward something more charitable. But we still wanted to include something a little creative for the holiday message in our e-newsletter, so we were all asked to submit an image, not necessarily a photograph, of what doing good means to us. At first I had no idea how to represent that feeling visually. Then, I asked myself, what are the reasons that I do good? And one of them was: I do good things with the hope of instilling that feeling of generosity and caring in my daughter, like my parents did for me.
And so, I used this photo for the card this year:
Why do you do good?
A Day In The Life
This type of blog has been on my to-write list for a while. Maybe no one is interested, but I know I am sure interested to see how other people pack it all in to a day and still manage to sit back and enjoy this roller coaster of life! So here’s a little sneak peak into our routine, which has sure changed now that R is teaching. Unfortunately mine doesn’t come with photos this time around. Here goes nothing . . .
5am – R’s alarm goes off. I do not allow any snooze button pushing. I love love love that I am not the first one to get up anymore. I thought I’d be annoyed every time his alarm went off, but it’s so nice to roll over and not be the one getting out of bed (sorry, dear). R takes care of feeding the dog, releasing the cat from her nighttime jail that is the laundry room, and lets the dog out to pee.
5:30am – R gets out of the shower and wakes me up. I hop right up and into the shower because I am still kind of awake from the alarm. When I get out of the shower, I clean up the bathroom, make the bed, etc.
5:50am – I eat a quick breakfast, usually cereal, before Miss M gets up (sometimes she gets up when she hears Ryan, around 5:15am – 5:30am, in which case she comes and snuggles with me).
6am – Usually around this time M wakes up. She often wakes up screaming to get out of her crib. There is no cooing and playing in the crib in the morning anymore. If she sleeps in a little, I start unloading the dry dishes from the night before and prepping her breakfast, or picking out what I will wear that day.
6:10 – 6:20am – Once she wakes up, I change her diaper, get her greased up with sunscreen, and get her dressed (she hates putting on sunscreen).
6:20 – 6:45am – M hangs in her highchair and usually eats fruit (banana, mango, peach, pear), applesauce and baby cereal (I spoon feed her this), and/or half of a small pancake. She doesn’t eat much and usually ends up throwing most of her food over the side or against the wall. She also has milk from her sippy cup – no more bottles for this big girl! During this time I am getting dressed, brushing hair and teeth, cleaning up kitchen, getting lunches together (packed night before).
6:45 – 7:15am – M and I take Miss Izzie for a nice walk. If it’s a good day, we go around the two long blocks. If we’re running late, she just gets to go around the block.
7:30am – Daycare drop off. It makes me feel good that she’s not usually the first kid there.
8am – I arrive at work.
3pm – Technically I am off the clock, but usually I don’t leave before 3:30pm and I usually run some sort of baby-free errand after work – target, grocery store, haircut. I bought a year gym membership and had planned to go after work before picking M up, but that hasn’t happened!
4 – 4:30pm – Daycare pickup. Again, she’s not the last one there, which is always a nice feeling.
4:30pm – 6pm – During this time, we usually go for another walk, a little bit longer than the morning walk. We play, clean up our lunch dishes, do dinner prep, put away dry dishes from breakfast, get laundry started, start on lunches for tomorrow. Daddy usually gets home during this time.
6pm – Daddy cooks us all dinner. For the most part, M eats what we eat now, but some nights we don’t eat until after she goes to bed. We try hard to eat before she goes to bed.
6:30pm – Watch NBC Nightly News and play with M.
7:00 – 7:30pm – If I have been doing laundry, I put it in the dryer before we start bedtime routine, so it will be ready to fold when I’m done. We have bath time, read a book, and go to bed (no milk at bedtime anymore). Sometimes she goes right to bed, sometimes we have to go in a few times to sooth her, but she’s usually asleep around 8pm or so.
Then, I clean up from dinner (R does the cooking) and do lunch dishes, pack lunches (if I haven’t already), clean up the bathroom from bath time, put away the toys strewn about the house, fold the laundry, clean up the kitchen, do any other chores – scoop litter box, take trash out, pull trash cans around, etc.
9pm or so – Usually I am done with clean up routine around 9pm or so, and I grab a cup of tea and read for half hour or less and fall asleep. It’s nice now that R has to get up early, because he usually goes to bed at the same time I do. We always try to be in bed with the light off by 10pm.
10 Years
Again, the day came and the day went. But it was 10 years this year. I can’t believe it’s been 10 years. And then, I can believe it. So much has changed. I spent a few minutes during the week last week watching the specials and weeping, thinking about my little family, and hoping we never have to experience loss. But my husband can’t take watching that stuff, and I don’t know why I do it to myself, so I didn’t see much coverage this year. 10 years ago I was in my last semester of college at the University of Florida. I didn’t have classes on Tuesday and Thursday, so I was home. We lived next door to G & G that year, and I watched part of it with each of them. And this year, they were on the move back from NH to NC, and stopped to stay with us along the way for a night. So, ten years later, we were together again. We opted to go out to breakfast instead of watching the coverage on TV. I know M isn’t old enough to remember, but I just don’t know if I want her seeing that stuff. It’s just too much.
Hurricane Irene
Our power went out at about 7:30am on Sunday, August 28th as Hurricane Irene rolled through New England. For us, she wasn’t much more than a bunch of rain and some wind. We did a good amount of preparation in the yard, bringing in things that could blow around and be damaged or cause damage. We worried a bit about going through a hurricane with a baby in a house with no real interior doors. I have memories of some nights sleeping on the floor of our kitchen in Florida, away from the windows, even though we had shutters on all the windows. We got plenty of non-perishable food and water, toddler formula instead of milk, and got the flashlights, propane stove and battery powered radio down from the camping gear in the attic. I got cash in case of total lack of power. We hunkered down. Irene didn’t do much on our street except uproot one tree and take down some limbs and our power before the storm had hardly even started. We felt cut off all day, unable to see where the storm made landfall and how NYC fared against mother nature and flooding. Although the phone and internet held out for a few hours after the power went out, we eventually grew to miss Facebook, weather.com and calling home to Florida for updates from TV. We hung out with some neighbors we’ve known for years, got to know a few new neighbors a little better, and met some new to us neighbors as we all surveyed the damage – which was quite minimal. One of our neighbors brought us dinner and we settled in as the sun went down. After dusk, my boredom turned into excitement as life felt more like an adventure, moving from room to room with whatever small light source we had. I really liked living by the flicker of candlelight. What a pleasure to complete all my chores before dark and just relax. I didn’t miss my precious technology as soon as the sun went down. I think the whole neighborhood went to bed early, because all you could hear was nature, peaceful and quiet, mixed in with the hum of a generator about six houses down the street.
Last night we went out to dinner to celebrate a good friend’s birthday and when we came home the power was back on. Is it bad that I was disappointed? Is it bad that I longed for another night off the grid? I miss the simplicity of the darkness. I miss the wholesomeness of the quiet. Maybe I can take something from this situation. Maybe I can try to disconnect from technology in the evenings, spend a little less time checking email and Facebook, spend a little more time reading and writing.
(I can say all this because our power was only off for 36 hours. It did not affect our ability to get running water. I only showered once in that time, and I was lucky enough to get the leftover warm water in the hot water heater. We did, however, decide to throw away all of our food, especially meat that had begun to defrost, instead of risk getting food poisoning).
Hopefully We’re Back
I’ve taken a little hiatus from blogging, partly because I am lazy and busy and partly because there’s been some tough stuff going on with some of my peeps (extended family and friends), and I’ve been feeling contemplative and quiet (ha, me?) and thanking my lucky stars for all and everyone that I have.
A lot has changed, and is changing and happening around these parts.
- My parents headed back to Florida after a 5-week stay here and lots of quality time. Much to the surprise of some of my friends, I didn’t have a breakdown ;)
- We had a run of over 6 weeks without anyone being sick (not counting M’s pink eye). Thank goodness for summer!
- I got a new title at work. I am now the Operations Manager of a Marketing Agency.
- R almost has his teaching certificate (only one multiple choice and one essay test to go in mid-September).
- R got a job teaching high school and elementary music in a town about 45 minutes away from our house (he starts soon!) This means he’ll probably be out the door before I normally get up, so life in the mornings for me and Miss M is going to be changing big time! I think we’ll both be eating breakfast on the job, and our hygiene and wardrobe choices are sure to suffer.
- R continues to work on his thesis, and we both hope he can juggle the new job, all his existing teaching and gigs, and the thesis writing over the next year and that we can still see each other once in a while.
- Miss M now goes to daycare 5 days a week (3 days at her daycare center and 2 days at a home daycare).
- Miss M drinks only whole milk (no formula) and we’re working on phasing out the bottle and phasing in the sippy cup, which is proving to be harder than I thought it would be.
- Miss M knows what she wants and when she wants it, and if she doesn’t get it, she gets pretty angry – for example, she wants to play in the dog’s water bowl, real bad.
- Miss Izzie goes in on Friday for her 2nd yearly checkup since her two big surgeries back in the Fall of ’09. She’ll go under anesthesia and have her teeth cleaned and get new X-rays. They will probably redo her bonding and most likely pull some more teeth. Poor baby.
- In addition to all that we’ve got in store for this next year, I’ve also signed up for the 200-hour Yoga Teacher Training at my favorite local yoga studio (1 full weekend a month for 12 months starting in September).
- I am anxiously awaiting the arrival of Fall, which is my favorite season, even though it means that Winter is coming. It’s going to be a busy year!
Here are a fewer new(er) photos. She’s still got 80′s rock star hair.
What I’m Up To
I gave up on the blogging challenge, officially now. I just cannot think about my plans for 10 years from now, my dreams that I am afraid to vocalize or the challenges I will face and how I will overcome them any longer. I am working on living in the moment. At the moment I am nice and sore from yoga and I am still in disbelief that this is my child’s hair, still. I hope the poor girl’s hair lays flat by 3rd grade.
Oh the Places I’ve Lived . . .
Let’s be honest – I totally stole the title for this post and the idea from a good friend. Her post was so nicely written that I could just picture the places she’d lived, and it really made me think about the lovely places I’ve lived, each with its own set of memories. I only hope I can express my memories as well as she did.
Disclaimer: Turns out I have lived a lot of places, and this post is super-duper long.
Home
The first place I ever lived, and the place that I will always call home is my parents’ house in Florida. They lived there when I was born, and they still live there. It’s a typical Florida home, one story and very open. They have sliding glass doors that open out onto a patio with a half in/half out of ground pool. On any given day, you can feel the breeze blow off the lake into the house and hear the sound of my dad’s many wind chimes. Wind chimes always make me think of home. There’s a small airport across the canal so the sound of small planes also always makes me think of home. I have memories of watching the summer rain showers come across the lake toward our house and it would be raining in the backyard just before it’d be raining in the front yard. I remember thinking Florida was so hot you could fry an egg on the pavement, and I tried it (unsuccessfully) more than once. I also remember thinking when it got cold there that it was really cold, and if the weatherman mentioned we might have a freeze, I would put out a cup of water or something in hopes of seeing it frozen the next morning. I don’t think this was every successful either.
Early College
Next I was off to college and the dorms of the good ol’ University of Florida. I spent the first 6 weeks of summer before my freshman year in a single room on the 4th floor of Sledd Hall. I didn’t realize how good I had it. The room was small, but cozy and the building was old and quaint. The floor was girls only, but one of the girls had her boyfriend staying with her, who happened to also be a teacher from her high school. I remember thinking this was weird, but not nearly as weird as I think it is now. It was here that I met Sharon, one of my best friends to this day. I also lived in Sledd during the first half of my freshman year, but moved to one of the Beaty Towers after Christmas. The reason the room was open was pretty sad. There had been a car accident after Thanksgiving and two students had been killed. One of those students lived in this room, and her roommate either dropped out or moved rooms after that, so there were two beds open. Sharon and I were happy to live together, but sad about why it was possible. This dorm had two bedrooms with two people each (4 total) who shared a kitchen and a bathroom. Sharon and I got a turtle and named him Raul. It was in this room that Sharon’s boyfriend at the time used our Ethernet connection to download tons of music from some website I had never heard of called Napster.
In the summer between Freshman and Sophomore years, I lived alone in a sublet apartment above a garage within walking distance of campus. For the first time I had dishes, a bed, and furniture of my own. I even got a cat (which I still have). I loved this little place, even though it had a shower so small I had to practically kneel to be in the water.
During my Sophomore year, Sharon and I lived together at A.P. Apartments. I worked across the street in the bakery at Winn Dixie. The apartment was nice enough and we each had our own bathroom, but we were located right near the clubhouse, which they loved to rent out for a $500 deposit to anyone, not just residents, and return if there was no damage. So basically, you could have a party there for free. Party goers loved to pee in the dryers. We also had some lovely neighbors above who introduced me to the sub woofer. At one point Sharon hung a sign on her window facing the pool (which the complex loved to show off to prospective residents) saying “I HATE A. P.“ Needless to say, we were asked to remove it, or move out.
Late College
I lived alone during my Junior year, and loved it. I still lived within walking/biking distance of campus. Again, I had a neighbor who liked to throw parties, and had the nickname Scotty-too-Hottie. I remember wondering what the deal was, because he never drove anywhere, and his parents always delivered his groceries. Once I found a plastic bag of ‘sandwiches’ on my doorstep. Another time one of his drunk underage friends ran into Ryan’s car and they paid us $500 not to call the cops or our insurance. I think my cat saw dead people in this apartment, because she’d always look just past you and put all her hair up – creepy. It was while I was living in this apartment alone and R was living alone in a mini-studio-house that he brought up the idea of living together. It was so cute – we were out somewhere and he drew the floor plan of this house he’d found on a napkin for me, and talked about how we could set it up. I was over the moon and I think I still have that napkin.
This place was by far the most memorable place we’ve lived, and not just because it’s the first place we lived together. The house was an old crack house that had been abandoned and then remodeled (although we agreed to rent it before the remodeling really started). All the original wood floors and ceilings had been restored. It was a shot gun house, meaning you could shoot a gun through the front door and all the way through to the back door. And someone did shoot in that front door once – there was a bullet lodged in the door. Ryan had his own music room, and we had a cozy little bedroom in the back with only enough room for a bed and a nightstand. It had tiny little windows all around and a slanted tin roof that sounded so wonderful when being hit with rain. We had a perfect front porch that you could lounge around on. We had the most wonderful neighbors, G & G, who we are still friends with to this day. The neighborhood was a little less than desirable, but it was a really fun (within walking distance of all the bars, concert venues and the downtown arts festivals) and eclectic place to live at that time in our lives.
New England
First we lived in a beautiful old mill where velvet was made that was remodeled to be apartments after being abandoned. Our apartment was huge and had cathedral ceilings with two story windows. Again, the walls were thin and the neighbors were bad. I don’t think I am made for apartment living. But, it was here that we experienced our first New England snow storm (which are eerily quiet compared to Florida storms!). Our ritual during and after snow storms was to put on our boots and hike down the hill to the grocery store to get stuff for nachos.
Finally, we have our current home. We like it just fine, it’s nothing special, but it’s home. It’s where we lived when we got Izzie and when Miss M was born. It’s where we had our first garden and our first compost pile. It’s where we lay our heads at night and we love it. Home is where the heart is, right?





